What was
it that this 38-year old Scotsman was doing that caused him to hear Jesus saying
something? It was 1846, and Horatius Bonar wrote that “I (he) Heard the Voice
of Jesus Say” several comforting things. Was he thinking of children or adults
when he thought about the message he received from His God that day? Was it
something that originally came to him as rather unclear, a vague idea that
formed gradually and had no distinct theme, at least at first? He had a method of
developing a song that was quite familiar later in his life, but just how
well-developed were his methods at this time? If his scheme was set, perhaps he
wasn’t all that troubled by the fuzziness of the message he was hearing; maybe he
just allowed it to gestate at its own pace. See what you think.
Horatius
Bonar was one of the most well-known hymn-writers of Scottish origin, with some
600 hymns to his credit. He’d been a minister for about 10 years in Kelso when
he authored “I Heard the Voice…” in the mid-19th Century. It’s said
that he wrote for children, so that they would be certain to have teaching they
could understand. He may have even gone about writing in the way a child might
have, in what someone else might think was disjointed and undisciplined.
Doodling was one way that he played with his prose, apparently, including on
this occasion. He’d already written many poems put to music by 1846, so we can
presume that he was already accustomed to hearing the Spirit speak to him in
ways that others might have ignored when a song was being formed. He might have
been walking in the countryside or riding aboard a train (see the sketch of one
scene in Kelso here, as Bonar might have remembered it),
common venues for
these episodes in Bonar’s compositional life. 1846 was also three years after
Bonar had departed from the Church of Scotland during the “Disruption” and joined
the Free Church of Scotland, one of the many difficult episodes in his life, some of which were yet to come. It was also three years after he had married
Jane, with whom he would have several children, five of whom would die before
reaching adulthood. So, here he was, a 38-year old, experiencing new life as a
married man, and ministering in a church following a split that must have
wrenched his spirit; and, perhaps he and Jane had already lost one or more
children. This up-and-down pattern that he’d already experienced would continue
over many successive years. Writing songs for children, with basic
uncomplicated messages, must have been therapeutic for him, perhaps a
manifestation of the serenity he sought on long walks or train rides.
Look at the
doodles of Bonar, and hear a childlike message in the voice in his head in
1846. Come and rest, drink and be refreshed, and look at the light. How he
responded to these directions is in his words too, summing up the verses he
created. To me, doodling often looks like the product of someone whose
attention has drifted, the evidence of an aimless boredom. But for Horatius
Bonar, it must have been a rhythm that others could not feel. If I concentrate
on what I struggle with, I most often feel frustrated, it seems. I become
obsessed, trapped against my own mental wall. Perhaps Horatius can teach me
something. Wander aimlessly, or take a ride somewhere, with just a notepad to
scribble on. You never know what He’ll say to you.
See more
information on the song discussed above in The Complete Book of Hymns – Inspiring
Stories About 600 Hymns and Praise Songs by William J. Petersen and Ardythe
Petersen, Tyndale House Publishers, 2006.
Also, see Amazing Grace: 366 Inspiring Hymn Stories for Daily
Devotions by Kenneth W. Osbeck, Kregel Publications, 1990; and Then
Sings My Soul – 150 of the World’s Greatest Hymn Stories, Robert J. Morgan,
Thomas Nelson Publishers, 2003.
To see a
4th verse of the song not often heard, see the following site: http://www.hymntime.com/tch/htm/i/h/e/iheardvj.htm
A brief biography of
composer: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Horatius_Bonar
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