Draw Me Close -- Kelly Carpenter

 

He was feeling overwhelmed, and was ready to chuck all that he was doing if that would allow himself to return to a closer place with God. “Draw Me Close”, Kelly Carpenter prayed one Sunday in his Kirkland, Washington home (northeast of Seattle, see the map here that highlights King County, in which Kirkland lies) in January 1994. Ironically, Kelly was involved with a worship and music ministry at the church that he and his wife loved, but that circumstance did not necessarily guarantee his spirit was in tune with the One he was trying to serve. Kelly had known for many years that music was his purpose, particularly since he had rededicated himself to Christianity over a decade earlier. So, what could possibly be wrong with an apparent calling that had him on a trajectory that he had been seeking for some time? Was his position just too much, too soon? Whose purpose was Kelly really serving in January 1994?

 

Perhaps it was a growing sense of unease that had been gnawing at Kelly Carpenter over the previous 18 months, as he breathed in exasperation one Sunday in January 1994. If his job had been strictly the music that he had wanted to write and perform, Kelly might have felt differently. But, organizing and directing all of the various parts of the worship ministry at a church of several hundred people was beginning to wear on him. How was he supposed to be a pastor to people? Kelly was leaning on his wife (Merrilyn) for help, but he still felt like an obsession with accomplishing all that was on the ministry’s plate was becoming too normal. Had this same phenomenon contributed to the previous minister’s departure? Kelly wondered if he was actually going to fail at this, as he also lamented a noticeable gap growing wider between God and himself. The shine had worn off of the enthusiasm he had once felt for serving in the kingdom, and he wanted to recapture that. He says that one line in the lyrics he composed – in just 20 or 30 minutes, with no changes made later – conveyed the heart of the matter. He’d ‘lay it all down…to be (His, God’s) friend again’. The only person he was interested in pleasing, in that moment sitting at his piano keyboard, was the Lord. Yeh, he was a pastor, but he realized that his connection to God was paramount. He was like a psalmist who had been cut to the heart, like one who was longing for water in a desert. Kelly’s ancient songwriting ancestor, David, had made similar entreaties to God – ‘As the deer pants for …water, so my soul pants for you, my God. (Psalm 42:1) Or, how about when David cried out to God because he acknowledged how far he’d strayed from Him – ‘Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.’ (Psalm 51:12) Kelly’s opening lyrics-song title sounded a lot like a contemporary David, longing to be in God’s embrace once more.

 

Kelly’s testimony says something pretty key for all of us fallible creatures, including ministers/pastors, whom unknowing church members sometimes place on pedestals. We can all get too caught up in our human endeavors, even ones in a church. It’s supposed to be all about Him, isn’t it? If what someone or some circumstance wants from me seems like too much for me to handle, what happens? STRESS, in big capital letters that can cast shadows too tall and darken my spirit. Yes, some things need to get done, and I need to be intentional about working diligently in what He’s given me to do. And if I have found His work energizes and helps fulfill my life, I can enjoy His life flowing through me as His tool. But, even ones chosen by God need help, especially in long-term efforts. Remember how Moses’ father-in-law Jethro advised him once (Exodus 18:13-26)? Get some help, share the load, and you’ll serve God and the people more effectively. God gives in many ways, including putting Merrilyn close to Kelly Carpenter to help him share the load. And, He also gave Kelly a sensation that something was still amiss, and a song that drew him back to his Maker and Sustainer. Does Kelly’s message speak to you, you stressed-out worker, today?        

 

 

See the story of the song in the books Celebrate Jesus: The Stories Behind Your Favorite Praise and Worship Songs, by Phil Christensen and Shari MacDonald, Kregel Publications, 2003; and, I Could Sing of Your Love Forever, by Lindsay Terry, Thomas Nelson publishers, 2008 

 

See the story of the song shared here also: Song Story:

 

See the story here also: Draw Me Close Meeting Place

 

See the composer-author perform the song here: Kelly Carpenter sings "Draw Me Close"

 

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Send Your Rain -- Kelly Carpenter

‘He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous’ (Matthew 5:45). So, was there a particular rainstorm that Kelly Carpenter was remembering in 1996 when he asked the Creator to “Send Your Rain”? Was Kelly appealing for just some of the same common grace of which Jesus was speaking (like when the rain fell on my street recently [see the picture]), or was there something more consequential about the rain he wanted to fall from the heavens? Did Kelly’s home’s climate coax him to write about rain? One can gather lots of questions when so few answers present themselves. Just try reading some of this songwriter’s biography, and you might be able make an educated guess about what his focus might have been, as he prayed for a weather event. See what you think.  

 

Any number of biblical episodes might have sparked Kelly Carpenter’s imagination as he lifted his thoughts skyward with a simple prayer, perhaps an occasion that intersected with something unique in his own life. Numerous characters in God’s story experienced His wrath or His blessing through rainfall. Did the people of Noah’s day even know what rain was, since none had been sent by Him to nourish the earth (Genesis 2:5), and no rain is mentioned again until Noah had finished building what God had told him to make (Gen. 7 – 9)? Certainly, those people must have felt God’s rain that time was a curse, so we can surmise that Kelly was probably not thinking of Noah and the ark when he prayed about rain. How about when Moses (Deuteronomy 11 and 28), or when Samuel (1 Samuel 12) told their contemporaries about rain, and how that spoke of God’s relationship to the people? But perhaps it was the episode between the prophet Elijah and the corrupt king Ahab and Queen Jezebel (1 Kings 17 and 18) that spurred Kelly’s thoughts. Elijah told the them that no rain would fall – and it didn’t for three years – until God told him it would, apparently as punishment for evil among the people, such as idol worship that God detested. Justice, on God’s terms, may be visited upon a people when He is particularly incensed; perhaps it takes a years-long drought and a slaughter of false prophets on Mount Carmel and a nearby valley for some people to admit who is the true God. Was there something similar that Kelly saw in 1996 that he thought needed some Divine retribution and correction? He asked for the Lord to ‘bring your kingdom’, for people’s ‘hearts’ to be ‘soft(ened)’, and for the ‘Spirit’ to be ‘pour(ed) out’, not unlike what Elijah prayed on that mountain (1 Kings 18:36-37) when Baal’s believers were humbled and punished. Who is Kelly Carpenter, you might ask, that might make him pray for rain? Besides singing the Lord’s prayer (Matthew 6:9-13; Luke 11:2-4) – about the kingdom coming, and His will being done here – Kelly says in his own bio that he seeks ‘peace and social justice’ and wants ‘to make a difference’, by using music and the arts as vehicles for promoting ‘peace, justice, equality, and prosperity’. He sounds like guy who does his part to bring the rain, doesn’t he?

 

More of Kelly’s personal information and some ‘bio bits’ on his website indicate he has been based in the Pacific Northwest, and seems to be a fan of the Mariners in Seattle, a place pretty familiar with wet weather. Additionally, his spiritual life apparently deepened at one point when he was led to the Vineyard Church in the 1980s and ‘90s, the period in which he wrote ‘Send Your Rain’. Here’s some more about this guy: described as a ‘natural musician from childhood’; thinks D-minor is the saddest of all musical keys; likes sci-fi movies, though his favorite movie is The Sound of Music; and says he almost always has at least one song occupying his thoughts. So what…why should you know some trivial details about one guy named Kelly? Do you think God has that reaction when he listens to each of us when we pray? He wants to know what is motivating each of us, and whether we see Him on planet earth each day, or whether we just shrug our shoulders when a few raindrops fall. When’s the last time you stood on your porch and watched the rain, and said ‘Wow!’? Let the rhythms of the world He made say something to you, OK?     

  

See the following for songwriter’s official website: About | Kelly Carpenter (kellycarpentermusic.com)

 

A video of this male artist singing another song he wrote: Kelly Carpenter sings "Draw Me Close" - YouTube

 

The picture of rain was taken in Fairfax, VA by the blog author on 7/19/2023, and therefore has no copyright restrictions.